Jesse and I are getting divorced.
I feel like I've written this post in my head a million times, but I could never actually write it. Mostly because I'm a very private person. The other problem is, I don't like talking about it. I don't like when people tell me, "Good for you," or "Its probably better this way." But I equally dislike the sympathy and the pity smiles. Honestly, it is better this way, but its still hard.
But its now been almost 5 months since Jesse moved out, and less than 2 months until the kids and I are moving to Utah. I was asked twice this weekend where Jesse was, so I guess its time to "go public."
I'm doing pretty well. 95% of the time, I'm actually happy. The other 5% of the time I just want to curl up in my bed and cry. But luckily the crying days are getting fewer and further between. So maybe my house is never clean anymore, and the kids don't get nearly as many home cooked meals as they should. They'll survive, right? The kids have done great with everything. Its really amazing to me how quickly kids adjust. Its amazing that within about a month, going to visit Daddy at his house was the new norm. I just hope that I can be the kind of mom that they deserve all on my own.
4 comments:
Carly you are an excellent mom an will do great. I am excited you are moving back to Utah, just sorry for the circumstances. We will have to get together when you get here.
I am so sorry you have to go through this. I never realized how hard divorce was until I watched my sister go through it. (And I will probably never fully understand all of the pain, anguish, and emotion.) When she emailed this to me, it made me cry:
http://babywalters.blogspot.com/2011/05/getting-unmarried.html
Glad you have such a great family to support you. I bet they are all so excited to have you move home.
Hugs ! so very sorry - but yes, you will be an awesome mommy - and I too am glad you have an incredible family and will have a LOT of support ! We love you
You are amazing! I know how you feel, you know that. I'm hear if you ever want to talk. I know sometimes you don't. But please call anytime!!!!! I hope you have a good support group! That's how I survived. You are already better than me! It took me a lot longer for me and i'm still only at 95%. Hang in there. We have to get together when you move.
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